Hi internet. Coming in hot today with some real talk. I’ve been feeling a certain kind of way lately and I listened to a podcast yesterday that hit the nail on the head for me. She talked about feeling isolated and basically just different, which is honestly how I’ve been feeling for a while. I know that it’s the stage of life that I’m in, being a mom of 2 littles in my late 30’s with another one on the way and also home schooling, not having help around, not hiring babysitters etc. I’m not blaming anything on those facts, I’m just simply stating facts. Motherhood in general sometimes can be isolating for some and I’m definitely in that category.
I also know that I keep people at arms length and I don’t let a lot of people get too close to me, which has been a recurring theme in my life. I was never the popular girl, or the girl even close to the popular group. Being bullied and always a loner, I just really liked keeping to myself to a certain extent.
I had friends growing up and a handful have stayed my friends til this day, which I’m thankful for, however; I find that the older I get, the harder it is to make real friendships. It’s like dating all over again, and I LOATHED dating. My dating life consisted of maybe meeting someone for a small coffee…. small. I’m talking like a double shot of espresso and if I didn’t like the way it was going by the time I was done with the tiny coffee, than I was OUT. I never went to dinners or anything that would take too long. Funny or no? lol
Anyway, I’ve been struggling lately to find my place outside of motherhood and I’ve been fortunate enough to find a few gems here and there but I’m still searching for that authenticity and realness, in a world of Instagram filters.
If you’re feeling out of place, or left out – know that you are not alone. Everyone says it, but really you can’t compare your life to someone else’s highlight reel on Instagram. We’re all struggling with something, some of us just choose to share and some don’t.
Thanks for the read!
xo,
Crystal
